I had Mexican food and now I'm farting a lot. And I just happen to make a lot of Persian friends for some reason. Smoked hookah twice today and I got a light headache the second time.

Michael and Brian are visiting tomorrow. I don't know what to do except practice for my audition. I'm thinking a song from SID and one from Incubus, or maybe somthing by Yoko Kanno or Groove Collective.


I don't know. I want to make it in. I need to practice slapping and tapping.

The area around my nose is very dry and red.

It bled today for some strange reason. I hate using lotion but I'm out of options.
So happy that the weekend is coming up. You have no idea.

Everyone's going insane lately. Like, at work and at home and with friends. Summer really drives people nuts.

I'm convinced now that Evan and Jason aren't that different after all. Knowing that they both read this lj, I'll refrain from saying who put the idea in my head. But I do see the resemblance. Waywah is just Waywah, kind of annoying the crap out of people this late during summer break. It's his modus operandi, or maybe it's just how things are supposed to be. We don't know, or at least I don't know.



Almost no one is online anymore- isn't that weird? Part of me wonders what Jason spends his time doing all day because he doesn't have work or a PS3, and it doesn't look like he's online (maybe he's invisible).

Anyways, I can't wait until this week is over. Overtime is killing me and Brian. What's worse is that William might also be working with us tomorrow. Eduardo says he'll be "on call", but I don't know what that means.


Answer your texts, Lindsey :P

This is my first post on my new laptop. It's very bright and hurting my eyes (or maybe I'm just tired from work).

So William is still here. One of the programmers said that QA Testers can do a lot of shit before they get fired. It makes a bit of sense now; Miguel isn'd doing jack shit even though he's a lead for the XBox and Wii; he was complaining about lot checks today, which Jason and I finished just yesterday in about 4 hours' time (we took that long simply because we were getting used to a new application).

Unfortunately, Brian was paired up with William today, so he had to suffer in boredom and annoyance while Jason and I finished about 80ish regressions. Devastating, isn't it? We made a list of what William ate today too:

-Gardetto's Snack Mix
- a 7-11 Big Bite combo (hot dog with all toppings, small bag of chips, and a 20 oz Big Gulp)
- Tapioca Express lunch combo (minced pork rice with side vegetables and milk tea)
- Two servings of Vinny's and my birthday cake


I have to finish AlcoholEdu. It's such a bore. Maybe later I'll go to Brian's for some BB.
Oh yeah, there's a list of tentative things I want to get before going to UCLA:

-H&M purple fitted dress shirt
-DIESEL sunglasses
-Energie white technofabric jacket
-Fender vintage bass bridge
-Basslines P-J pickup combination

And I'll still have at least half a grand to spare. Ahh~

Today after picking Lindsey up and going back to Cerritos, we went to Lollicup for lunch and invited Arnold to hang out with us. I asked if I could play BlazBlue at his house afterwards and he was more than happy with the company, and then I called Brian to see if he wanted to join as well. But Brian told me that Jason was already going to his house to play BlazBlue, so we could instead meet up there. After relaying the information, Arnold then said that earlier on, Jason had an argument with him regarding the PS3 and playing it at other people's houses, something about it being too annoying to go to someone's house just to play a game and that he wanted Arnold's PS3 at his house so he could play whenever he wanted. So the whole time we were at Brian's house, there was a huge tension in the room, which I didn't care much for because I was busy trying to time my Hakumen's drive counter with Jason's Noel juggles. And now that I think about it, I should have used more Zantetsu's because it deals a huge amount of damage, even for only three magatama. But you know what?


I can always count on iced green tea summer drama to give me shits and giggles, respectively.
It's Cocksquad's final arc. How will the series finale end?

Actually, ignore that. It's an inside joke, and a bad one to boot.

Also: I have to buy books for my Summer Session classes. The novels I should probably read beforehand are:

Bell Jar
Crying of Lot 49
Last Known Residence of Mickey Acuna
Lost in the Funhouse
Revolt of the Cockroach People

A headache from doing too many things, thinking about too many things, and seeing too many things.


I hum new songs in the shower but they almost always disappear by the time I'm done wiping off with a towel.

Sometimes I wish Waywah wouldn't be so clingy. I also wish I could be better with Hakumen.




Moving into UCLA in about 2 weeks. Exciting, no? Well, for me it is. So next week I'm planning to go to the casino.

Time passes by so quickly when you work overtime. Today I had to confirm with Brian that it was indeed Thursday, and not Wednesday or Tuesday. We realized that somehow the monotonous schedule of driving back and for to San Gabriel and regressing bugs had taken a toll on us. We still like the job though; I hope to come back next summer and work with my coworkers again, especially Vincent and Cool William.

I call him Cool William because at the moment I have to differentiate him from another William, who is just about to get fired. Cool William is in his mid to late twenties, he has a girlfriend who showers him with expensive presents, and friends who shower him with expensive presents, he dresses nicely and is very amiable, he plays BlazBlue and Soul Calibur 4 and Street Fighter 4, and he generally gives off the aura of awesomeness, even when he beats you at a game. He has manners, connections to the boss and many other gaming corporations, and he is very professional.

The other William, whom I refer to as Will (although I never talk with him) is the guy that makes us look good. He eats while he plays games, surfs the internet and takes up bandwidth, plays other games instead of working, and generally acts like an idiot. This week, he was caught sleeping on the job just after his (and my) lead talked to him- by our boss. He downloaded a bunch of files on his personal laptop (which he shouldn't bring because he's not inputting any bugs or viewing any regressions, not that he even has clearance for them) while our programming team was downloading a new build and lagged us all behind. My hatred for him knows no bounds, simply because he's so despicable, and added to that fact, he actually raged at me in front of coworkers and superiors - twice in one day. But I take solace in the fact that everyone at the office hates him, and I would love nothing more than to see him fired on the job.

Today, he called in after lunch because he had been in a car accident, and couldn't make it to work. Problem is, William drives a huge Lexus SUV (not the RX hybrid), and so unless he was demolished by a tanker, there was no reason for him to take the rest of the day off. Not that it mattered though; we finished the new build with ease without William, making inside jokes about his cumbersome behavior and infantile behavior.


Anywho, I'm making a shit-ton of money for a summer job and, tired as I am, I'm still a bit happy that I'm not sitting at home and wasting away. I also got my bass on Sunday; I'll post pictures when I can. For now, the Victory is in for repairs (output jack finally gave in and it probably needs refretting) so this P-Special is my new main.

hooray, summer~

I can't believe that UCLA won't allow students to register until orientation. Biggest waste of time ever. Fuck.

There's a Milton class that deals specifically with Paradise Lost. I WANT IN ON THAT SHIT.
And I need to read the last few books on that as well. I stopped at book 6, I think. But I realized that I don't like very many authors aside from Milton. The Victorian and Romantic Eras bug me.


But I have a shit-ton of literature on them just sitting on my shelves, and nothing to do. So, yeah. I'm lazy as fuck :|

I have to pick up my bass on Sunday instead of Saturday. Kinda made me sad, but it's more time to hang out with Lindsey and Blake and Alex. Where are we going to eat? I have no idea. I bet we're just going to Mitsuwa, but maybe tomorrow I'll feel like IHOP. Well, I know right now I do; it's because I sleep earlier nowadays, so staying up makes me hungry. Eurgh, working is tiring. I mean, it's fun but I don't like a coworker there, mainly because he's fat, lazy, bad at games, and he complains a lot. He's always eating excessively during work hours and takes too extra time off for lunch every day. He doesn't seem to have a lot of corporate etiquette either.

I don't care much about the other girl because she's getting owned by cellphones (hooray for moving to the PS3 department) so this guy is all I have to deal with. But it's a lot. It frustrates me.


I am probably not going to be in Eien's band anymore. It's been 1 and a half months and we still have not had our first practice session.
Lame as fuck.

The next time I see Tiffany Lee Wu, I'm going keep my distance. If she comes this Saturday, I'll most likely yell at her and tell her to get the fuck out. Worst comes to worst, I'll probably see Lindsey punch her in the face before I get to.


We had closure two years ago.
But stupid cunts never learn, I suppose.

What the hell am I doing up at this hour?
I have work tomorrow until 10pm :|

Lindsey, stop killing me in your dreams. It's bad enough that we don't see each other as often as you'd like.

I have to spend most of my paycheck on cosplay material this weekend (which is not really cosplay material at all). I'm kind of happy for AX, but at the same time, I'm trying to keep my hopes in check because I know it's never as good as I think it's going to be.

I'm playing Jason (my coworker) at Soul Caliber 4 now; he's really good with Nightmare and wants to help me improve. Yesterday I found out that one of my supervisors Kevin just up and left. He was head of the Wii Division, and it's kinda sad that he left without so much as a "Goodbye". Like, he literally just got up and left, and no one knew about it until today. I didn't know about it until today. So now I don't have a person sitting next to me, and since I'm situated in a corner, that means I'm all alone. It's very sad.


The new guy (William) is not that good looking. I have a hard time looking at him, and he's one of my coworkers for console gaming. He keeps saying 'blitz' when the game we're playing doesn't have a blitz. And he's kind of like Waywah: big, awkward, and cracks really bad jokes.

Chances are, Sherman's not going to hire Brian. I feel sad about that, because even the other two applicants didn't seem as friendly or keen as Brian did. It's probably because Sherman doesn't like hiring summer workers. And to add to that, I've found out that my office is full of backstabbing snitches. Well, not all backstabbing snitches, just the programmers and one of my good coworker friends.



I thought work would be like The Office. But this is like, the drama version, which is not cool :[

Is it so wrong to like patent leather?

According to my mom, it is.



On a separate note: I am so glad that I didn't go to San Francisco.
Don't want to wear no flowers in my hair.
And Jackie+Brian got me a Gay Pride flag and Gay Gum.

It's nice to know they care :(

synkk 's farts smell really bad when she's been drinking coffee.

This weekend has been relatively boring because Jackie, Brian, Jason, Arnold, and David+friends went to San Francisco. But on the upside, I made a bit off money (my paychecks are weekly) and there's a Fender Precision on craigslist that I want to buy (to switch off my Squier P; the pickups aren't noiseless). Well there's a lot of things I want to buy, actually D:

Summer sales and I'm here saving money :(
It's sad, I know. But I'll be happy when I have lots of money in my bank. I think.


It's also confirmed that Brian and I will be doing Hitman: REBORN. I'm Lambo. Sorry, Leslie :(

Practice for 4 hours.


It's building my right forearm muscle up.
This is what summer's for.

On the topic of sleeping over:

Vessicator: are your parents scared of you being promiscuous?
h0ney d1pp x: or getting raped
h0ney d1pp x: hah
Vessicator: uh
Vessicator: or raping others :|
h0ney d1pp x: there's no one to rape :[
Vessicator: oh my god
Vessicator: so you would
Vessicator:  :[
h0ney d1pp x: it's not rape if they like it :[
Vessicator: i can't believe i'm not the one cracking these jokes


In unrelated matters, today I made Hae feel self-conscious about her fat by jokingly talking about her tofu-arms (a phrase I took from Leslie). She took it personally, haha. Her status update on facebook read something like:

"I really could care less what you think about me but I'm in this game to lose it, not win it. Your cruelty just inspired me to work harder and wait for the day when karma bites your ass."

If she could care less, she wouldn't have been so offended. lol


I'm so bored at work :(

Today at work I met someone deceivingly shy and soft-spoken. In actuality, she's very defensive and self-conscious, but I have an idea as to why this is. She doesn't appreciate my humor and sarcasm, and this reminds me of someone I know. And incidents I know.
It's easy to laugh off though. And it's even easier to ignore.
Work-drama is the most tricky of dramas to handle.


Good thing though: I don't stand for shit like that.

I'm employed at a private game testing company called Mobilehead LLC. It's a small company barely 5 months old that mainly does alpha and beta tests for cellphone games, but they're soon opening a console game division. The environment's very relaxed even though I work a lot (and believe me, testing games is work, not play), and everyone is friends with everyone, even the boss. I don't hate my job; it's a new experience, and I didn't know corporate work would be this simple (it's sort of like a cubicle job, only we don't have cubicles and we don't do business-wear). I don't think about anything other than finding bugs in the game. I don't think about the university I'm to attend, I don't think about my summer plans, I don't think about money, and I don't think about life.

It's not depressing at all; I realize yet another perspective and allegory to this reality is a game. They call it 'a game of life' because it's filled with so many glitches and power cycles and exceptions and comes from all developers and in all forms (all 2 of them). The objective has always been so simple: get to the end. If we generalize it the objective of every game has been this. Stay alive to get to the end. Beat the boss to get to the end. Figure out the puzzle to get to the end. Get to the end.

Which makes me wonder why people complicate things. The uncertainty of a path is the result of doubt. The result of doubt is self-awareness of one's faults. One's faults are a result of imperfection. Imperfection is human.


What if we don't make it to the end? Then we fail, and the game is over.
Life is simple. I don't know this, but I know it to an extent.

I'm tired. Tired of complicating things. Tired of complicating myself. Tired of being constrained by my emotion and upbringing and tired of being myself. I'm tired of smiling, tired of frowning, tired of giving a damn because I should, and tired of shaking and nodding my head. I'm tired of doing anything else but doing what I need to do, and I'm tired of seeing me in other people.


I'm tired of turning into the person I don't want to be, but I'm tired of trying to humor myself.
I'm tired. But you wouldn't know if I didn't tell you.

My ex-girlfriend just became my friend's ex-girlfriend.


BADUM BADUM. Time for congratulatory champagne and DRAMA.
yiyuh


T^Tb

btw it's thunderstorming here wtf